DEPART

Dear Friendzzzz,

To start with this post cudn’t have been so beautiful without Mitali’s translation……. Thank you so much

Looking through d glass doors, our eyes met, and slowly d floor beneath me began to move, as d metro I was standin in, crawled out of the station. My mind was occupied, not by d idea of my own feelings, but by the thought of wat he would be doing, standing alone on d platform. Wid d large crowd of people in d metro, I had no wish to look at anybody, but was forced to ponder over d question I often ask myself – Why did it happen???


In every relation, there r problems, coz nobody is perfect. But if others can be happy, y not me? Wen I began my day today & was getting ready to meet u, I wanted us to sort out issues between us. Alas! It dint happen. I know, dis is not easy for me, same as u.


Wen d metro moved, I felt for a second, dat I should get down on the next station, catch another metro & come to u, hug u & cry my heart out. But I knew, dat if I did so, I wouldn’t be comin back to d place, where I startd my day from – a very tough decision 4 me to make, at dat time. I know, dat u heard me today, my words & also read d truth in my eyes. Life is not easy for me, widout u!

It was drizzling, and wid my head leaning against d window of d car, I was listening to d melodious music playing within. I had kept my palm against d glass & was thinking, that widout u, every season is colorless, although I love rains, BUT NOT WIDOUT U! I want to hv u in my life, but not in dis way, dat we quarrel day – night, hate eachother. Instead I want u in a way, such that we don’t hv to part, jst because of our stubborn attitudes, that neither of us compromises. I wanna see u hapy, even if its widout me in d picture. However far might I be, d imprint u hv left on me & my personality is permanent, I can never be anyone’s.

Im annoyed wid u – a lot & if Im parting wid u, its only wid a hope in mind, dat when we meet again in future, we do not bother abt such petty issues. In order to build any relation, both the people hv to compromise.

U JUST TAKE 1 STEP, WID ALL HONESTY, I SHALL TAKE THE REST 99 STEPS, TO MEET U!!

D look on ur face, at d moment we parted, was a look I wil never forget in my life.



                                                   “Honey lets give it 1 more try!”

INTEZAAR……

Yeh tumhare liye hai,,,

Ek lamba arsa hua tumhey mujhe booley hue, ek lamba arsa hua haasey hue, aur ek lamba arsa hua hai jeeye hue…………

Bas aab intezaar hai to us zindagi ka , us pal ka jis pal tumhe sirf paa sakoo..... Waqt lag sakta hai par

“ tumhare bagayer jena kya jene ka khwaab bhi nahi dekh sakti…. Sanson ke bagayer mai kuch pal jee sakti hoon shaayad lekin tumhare bina nahi, haan tum tum who pehle insan ho jise mai zindagi se baadh kar chahane lagi hoon , mera aaj mere kal mere din mere pal sirf tumhare dum se hain, meri pooja mein meri duaon mein, meri khamoshiyon mein meri sadaon mein sirf tum ho sirf tum. Tare toot jayengey , chaand bujh jayega lekin umeed ki aakhri kiran tak aakhari saans chalne tak tumhara intezaar karungi……..”

Har roz aankhein band karke tumse baatein karti hoon, aur tum mujhe boltey ho “ Mishteee, kamon aacho? Aur yeh sunney ke liye main puri raat intezaar karti hoon.


Uparwala itna bhi bura nahi ho sakta hai. Woh zaroor humein milayega….. kahi na kahi.


Tum umeed mat harna bas.  Karogey na mera intezaar

IHM- Connection

Dear Friendzzzz,

"Kabhi to pehli mulakat hi kafi hoti hai aur kabhi bahatsi mulakatein lagjati hai."

I am talking about my roommate. She is a person whom I have started to know recently. She is sometimes strong like a mountain in front of a crowd but when she is in the room she is like a small child who can be cranky to open door or can be happy with small things.... "ek cup coffee" and loads n loads of biscuits.

She is mature when she is handling trouble but weak when she watches any1 crying. She has big-time mood swings but can only be handled by the love of life Abhi...... only for her.

She is truly, deeply n crazily in love with him and same the other way round. The thing for which I respect her is that she never talks bullshit n only believes in doing things which are only her business.

The don't care attitude is another thing which I wish I can learn from her. One thing that I have learned from her is how to be clean n how to use titz-bitz......to make wonderful hand made things.

  

                                                       

Aaha! I forget something very special she is love with Robert Pattinson n Twilight Saga. She has read the book for like 100 times n the movies a score time. N the best part is that she has the capacilty to to read as well as see.... And u know what when she n some1 with same interest meets she talks n talks n talks till the time I tell the other person to GET OUT.....

                                                        

                                                

She is the movie queen of our hostel n every1 cums n ask her " Mitali kuch nai movies hai?"

The 1 thing she has taught me to be clean, love and worship God. I see her everyday n every day I learn something. She has made me realized how important it is to 1st love self rather than loving others.

I just want to say her "THANK YOU" for understanding me n giving me all positive suggestions to be happy.......

THANK YOU for making me somewhat a good person whom my parents r proud of.

Be as you r n always love Abhijeet. GOD BLESS............ Luv u lot.....

                                 

GALTI

Dear friendzzz

Galti har insane se hoti hai. Aagar zindagi mein galtiyan nahi karogey to seekhogey kaise ? Kyon hai na? To bilkul aap logon ki tarha maine bhi ek galti ki par mujhe pata nahi tha ki us galti ko karne ke baad itni takleef milengi. Aagar pata hota to shaayad main bhi khush hoti.



Meri galti thi ki maine usey beyintaha pyaar kiya aur ussey bhi baadi galti ki ki maine ussey utni hi mohabbat ki umeed rakhi. Har ek ko umeed hoti hai na.... par yahin pey mai chook gae. Mere liye wohi meri poori duniya thi. Mujhe kuch aur dikhta hi nahi tha shaayad isliye kyon ki mujhe kisi aur ko dekhna hi nahi tha.


Humey shuroowat se pata tha ki hum dono bilkul alag the... hamari soch hamari pasand saab kuch…. Aur tabhi to kehtey hai “ Opposites Attract”. College mein to hum bilkul nahi jhagadtey the. Hame reasons dhoondane padtey the taaki hum bhi doosron ki tarah ladey. Kya baataoon doston aisi nazar lagi ki bas…….

Usey kya baatau kya chalta hai mere dimag mein. Usey kho dene ka daar kaisa hota hai. Who mere se chidhta hai ki mai uski jaasoosi karti hoon par tumhe kya baatau ki main aisa kyon karti hoon. Mera hamesha maan karta hai ki usey yeh bataun ki who jab mere paas hota tha to jaise laagta tha ki zindagi itni khoobsoorat kaise ho sakti hai? Uske cheherey se nazar hi nahi haatti thi. Uski haasi jaise ki sagar ki lehrey jhoomti hue. Uski aankhe jaise boolti thi ki duniya dekho to bas meri nazaron se. Uski baatein bas sunti jaoon sunti jaoon sunti jaoon.

PAR WOH NAHI SAMAJH PAYA

 

Jab woh doosri ladkiyon se baat karta tha na mujhe bahat daar lagta tha isliye nahi ki who usey pasand karlegi par isliye ki shaayaad who ladki ussey mujhse zyaada pyaar karey, who kushiyan dey jo main nahi dey sakti…. Isliye ussey pagalon ke jaise laadhti thi. Usey yeh batane ke liye ki jab mai har subha uthoon to har baar tumhi ho jise main aapni kinarey paoon. Jab ladhoo to woh sirf tumho aur koe nai. Mai kush rahu to log jale kyon ki mere paas vishal hai jo aur kisi ke paas nahi hai. Mera har gaana sirf tumhare liye ho......

Par isey kya farak padhta hai? Kuch nahi. Agar pyaarse saab kuch ho sakta tha to hum shaayaad duniya ke saabhse kush jodi hotey….. Uskey dost uski buri aadaton pey nahi toktey kyon ki who kyon tokengey. But mujhe zaroor farak padhta hai kyon mere liye us insane ki kya ahmeeyat hai who sirf mujhe pata hai. Par issey kya farak padhta hai.

Kismat mein jo likha hota hai usey kon badal sakta hai....... jo bhi kiya usey paney ke liye kiya par na usey mera pyaar dikha aur nahi mera daar. Aur afsos ki baat yeh hai ussey pane ki jagah maine khoya.

Usney mere pyaar ko meri kamzori samjhi aur mujhe takleef deta raha par maine har baar yehi socha ke usey maaf kiya kiBas yehi thi meri GALTI………….

"Hamara kal jaisa bhi ho hum milkey usey khoobsoorat banayengey par agar tum saath nahi to na mera aaj hai aur na mera kaal."

Rainy Day

Hi Guys,

It was quite a long gap meeting my mom & dad. Festive season started in the month of August so we got 4 days holiday on the occasion of Rakshabandhan. I reached home on Friday evening had a gud time with my family. After having dinner I went to my bed and realized that " I was feeling lonely". But why was I sad? I was difficult for me to discover coz I knew what the reason was. I took my pillow n tried hard to sleep n eventually I slept peacefully.

The Saturday and Sunday was gr8 as I TRIED to enjoy with my family. Went for movie had caramel popcorns laugh my lungs out unnecessarily. But it was fun. The days were mediocre for me. On Monday I got up from bed to discover that it was raining Cats & Dogs. Mom shouted that " bahar rassi pey kapadey tangey hai use fatafat uthale". I ran and did the same.

All of a sudden I stopped , looked back and saw the rain drops. They were full of rhythm and music. I took a stool n sat. The rain drops took me back 3 years reverse. Wearing a white sweater gifted by my best buddy holding his hand enjoying the rain drops. It was blissful. I still remember the giggles n the bitching about others. Just having Rs6 in pocket walking together for having a cup of tea n a biscuit. No complication only affection and the eagerness to be with each other that was all.

And now things have changed so much that being together also doesn't make him happy. "Life changes so fast" I always believed was just a saying that was quoted by our parent n faculties. But it can happen so quickly n fast was unknown to me. Now, wen I turn back n look at those days I feel that been penny less was awarding than been all alone 2day n searching for that same hand which hold your hands tightly wen you needed them.

What those days were wen someone while giving interview called you just to ask " Shud I Quit?" n me waiting for that person to get through the campus every time. What an unconditional love it was..... And now the same person tells u "why do u have to poke ur nose in everything. Its my life n dont interrogate... I dont like me.... Stop that.... I enjoy with my friends than u....... HARSH na but true. Imagine wat the other person goes through?????

"KAASH" is only the word I can recollect to tell some1 wen he treated me badly how I felt n how my dreams got shattered one by one.... Kaash tumhe pata hota......

And then I suddendly realized that my mom was calling but quietly the rain drops changed the place n was raining down my cheeks.

 

A place very special to me

Dear Friendz,

This is my 1st post so pardon the errors. When you start working the life sometimes changes up side down. N that happened with me. A great job with gr8 salary n two holidays a week. What else a person needs. I was working in the same company where my boyfriend was working. So it was March 2008 and I was not at all feeling good working so I asked him why not to enjoy this weekend somewhere in the mountains. As usual we fought bcoz he was not interested. But some how he managed. We took Friday as an off and Saturday & Sunday were our weekly off. So 3 days were to go. We decided to go to Manali via Kullu. I had been there so I was some what excited. At 8.30 pm we both reached ISBT and were searching for the ticket counter. After struggling for 15 mins we got the counter. We jumped towards the counter to get the tickets for Kullu. Vishal informed with a red face that there are no tickets available. I coudnt understand how to react " My 1st trip n its turning out to be a disaster" . I told him I dont know but I am not going home.... no not at all..... never. So then he ran again to the counter and came back with 2 tickets n this time it was for SHIMLA. I shouted at him why Shimla n why not some other place etc etc.... I cribbed during the entire journey.

We reached Shimla at 5.30am. It was dead cold when we stepped out of our volvo. There were many people standing outside the bus n looking at the passengers. As usual I was barking at him that "it is so cold and we dont have proper clothes" etc. My feet were frozen like sculpture but he was still walking. Then all of a sudden a elderly person approached us and asked" Babu hotel dhoond rahe hai aap?" We nodded or heads conforming him "YES". He asked out budget. We quoted Rs7000 for 2 days. He took us to the nearest hotel that was known as The Leela Residency. We checked in at 6am. We were given a beautiful room whose interior was cream in color and the curtains were of red color the bed sheet was of orange ...... The sceneric beauty was breath taking. We both slept for 7 hours and woke up around 12pm. It was warm and sunny outside. We both did our daily stuff one after another and were ready by 12.45pm. We took the lift and came down to reception. There we inquired about the places that we cud see in these 2 days. They asked us that " Today you visit the Mall road and tomorrow we will hire a cab and visit the local area". It was a kilometer and half walk from our hotel to the Mall road. Very tiring for me at least. We reached and we were dumbstruck to see the place.

Everything was available. Outlets like CCD, Barista, UCB, Dominos ..... the list continues. We had our lunch at a Chinese restaurant. We had vanilla ice cream and believe me that is the best vanilla ice cream I ever had. We roamed here and there. There's a Church which was closed I dont know why but looked very pretty. After that we went back to our hotel and had our dinner n slept. Next day at 9am our cab was ready to race the mountain roads. Zig -Zag Zig- Zag........ Visited Kufri, went for a go carting ride, played with snow balls, swinging on a giant swing. It was awesome. There were Maggie stalls were we had hot Maggie. Had loads and loads of fun out there. Then it took us 1 hours to return back to the hotel. Our bus was at 10pm. At 9.45pm we checked out boarded the bus and came back all fresh and were ready to enjoy our stressful work once again.

I cant ever 4get Shimla bcoz he was with me and the 1st encounter with a place which is as pure as snow of there land. I am in love with Shimla. The definition of Happiness n Peace to me is SHIMLA.

I wish every time I vist you "He"should be by my side as Shimla cant be more beautiful if I have his hands entangled with mine....